i'm working hard!!
am i???
i really want to...
but i'm still taking it easy...
every part of me is screaming
"THERE'S NOT ENOUGH TIME!!!"
but it seems like i'm doing smth
but - nothing
i want to feel the stress
but i'm not feeling it
and i'm streesed over not feeling the stress
am i making sense??
i really want to work hard
and do well
i dun wanna regret like i always do
regret not saying "sorry" to u
and now that u are gone 4eva
and i can never say that to u
y?!
regret taking certian tings for
granted
my chinese for eg.
y?!
y is it that i haf to regret
, make a mistake and
change?
i can't do that tis time
i've got no 2nd chance
i've taken too many chances for granted tis yr
if i didn't make it tis time round
i'm done for!
i dun want a repeat
my life is like repeating itself again and again and again
i dun want to
i dunt want!
y do i always haf to go thru it once
and den i'll noe wad to do??
i can't tis time
i took the chances far to many times
i dunno whad to do....
i noe i'm not giving my best
i'm tryin too
but - nothing
i did my part
but i dun tink it's enuff
it's never enuff
now its like
everyting is rushing
i'm gg against my worst enemies - TIME and MYSELF
y?!
y did it haf to bcum like tis??
i've warned myself against it
but still, i willed it...
how pathetic!
i dunno...
what has gotten into me??
tis is ridiculous!
_the panda ranted
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